The symptoms of Life....

Another day, and I am on my way to work. A brisk and breezy morning, I really had to use the lavatory when I arrived. Seeing there was no toilet tissue, I decided to call Yusuke, the man in charge, but received Emi on the other line instead. To my surprise, Yusuke is in the hospital, after not being able to breathe the day before, and the Doctor said he had a cold, and not to worry. What is the deal with Doctors and Vets that they misdiagnose their patients? Do they just want us to all be paranoid freaks?!!! Really? I hate it! What are we suppose to do when we rely on these people to tell us what is wrong?

About 3 years ago, I had my baby boy, Yaju, who passed with a brain tumor. It was by far, the worst time in my life. I had been through surgery 11 years ago, and still, it wasn't as traumatizing. Yaju started with a patch of fur that went missing from his cheek.... from there, he stopped eating, and after a couple of months... he lost his vision.

I tried to diagnose his problems myself, researching online and such. I had to drive about 10 miles 4 times a week for about 2 months, trying to find out what was wrong with my child. They didn't have an answer. The answer came, after I had completely lost myself, to my son's illness. I was at work, and I was told he had a brain tumor. It wasn't until I saw the x-ray, that it was evident, he was going to have to be set free from his pain.

The strange part, was that the Doctor who performed the cat-scan, was a friend of my Father-in-Law. As soon as I saw the massive tumor, pushing his brain to the side, I cried like a maniac. The fact it wasn't diagnosed earlier, made me furious... and sad. To top it off, I had to decide right there, if I was going to take my son home, or if I wanted to lay him to rest right then.

I knew my Sister would want to say goodbye, so we decided to take him home. He rode on my lap, content, as we made the long journey home. When we got there, we decided to pull the mattress down so he could sleep with us. I was like the Mother Hen all night, as I watched my Baby Boy find his way through his dark visions, to his food bowl and back to the bed.

The next morning, after I had finally fallen asleep from my Mother Hen duties, I quickly awoke to the sound of my panicked husband. My son was convulsing in his arms. I didn't know what to do, except cry, and ran next door to my Sister's, to tell her that "It was time."

After making that decision, my vet asked me if that was what I wanted to do. I know that he hadn't seen the x-ray, but was still very pissed off that he had the nerve to ask me this. No, I didn't want to do this... it was the only option to releave my Son from the pain.

I wonder why people of healing, can't mix spiritual and western medicine together.

My Mom, is both. She performed healing touch on me, 11 years ago, to diagnose me with my illness. So here the next story goes....

This guy I dated on and off for six or so years ( I might get into this story again later on....), passed away, unexpectedly. I found out, a couple of weeks later. After knowing, I was devastated, never had I felt such sadness. The next couple of days, I was working, as usual, and began to feel a lot of pain in my abdomen. I came home from work, and my Mom did Reiki on me. After the entire process, she asked me what I felt. I told her, that I had felt these little men inside me, pulling things aside, and there was a hole.

Come to find out, after 9 hours of surgery, that there was a hole. How completely amazing... and scary. There is no medical explanation that 1/2 my colon had to come out... my appendix was wrapped up on it, making a hole shape... all my Mom told me was that part of me died with him.
The 11th year of his passing was yesterday, which makes it a grand ol' time for such speaking... which brings on....

Why?!!! Why do people have to deal with this? Deal with this modern day medication and paranoia?! Why can't we all just be natural healers... with energy and plants.
I can't stand pharmaceutical companies that only focus on mind drugs... let your minds free.... of course you will have anxiety... especially if you focus on this.... ah!!!!

So I know that Yusuke is going to be alright.... but it is this focus that is reoccurring day in and day out for me. People keep going in, and coming out of the hospital lately and I just want to say to pass the good energy along. Energy is what surrounds all living things... we need to keep it positive, to better those around us.